When have you felt most alone in life? Is it now? Have you ever felt alone?

I felt most alone in my life when I didn’t feel heard, when I didn’t feel seen. I didn’t feel understood. I didn’t feel safe. I thought these few things were simple right.? Between human beings. Billions of us. All different in some way. Clinging to identities that are molded and shaped since birth. It should be easy for us to look into the eyes of a fellow human being and see that they too have felt alone. They too have felt the abscense of being heard and understood, or being seen and safe. And yet the opposite seems to occur and living in survival mode continues. Instead of looking into the eyes of a fellow human being and connecting to the magical idea that we are uniquely the same in many ways and have so much we could teach each other. Guards immediately go up and the inauthentic games are played .

I can say at this very moment in time in my life I will never feel alone again. I can say this confidentiality because I have done and continue to do a lot of self work and I make alone time a priority. I have went many routes, there are many roads to who you are and they are all special and the right roads! I’ve talked with counselors. I’ve read tons and tons of self help books (they are some of my favorites). I’ve researched my body and how it runs and what types of foods and spices/herbs, massages, energies, etc. are good for it and actually experimented with many these things. In science class when they would come up with a theory or hypothesis, then test it to get a solution/answer/data. Well our personal selfs, our lives are just like this idea. We are such a brilliant species. The ability to read and write and articulate. We have the world at our fingers tips for the science experiment which is YOU/ME.

We get lost and feel alone and it’s okay. It’s ok to feel/be alone. It is when you will hear the quiet whisper of your soul/spirit. We are such powerful beings and it’s diluted by the dream of the world/society. Chasing companionship and how society says life should look. We lose sight of our special power to create any life we choose by chasing a collective dream.

It eventually clicked for me that I just lacked hearing myself when my gut screamed at me and I ignored it for others. I lacked seeing myself for who I really am and compared myself endlessly to those around me. I lacked understanding in myself, and I lacked feeling safe with the life I was living and trusting the choices I was making. I was stuck in a loop of feeling like I was let down in my outside world when really I just kept recreating the same feelings through different moments.

Boom! I was awake to what I was putting myself through. I shifted. Things changed. The people around me shifted. Some stayed some went. Jobs changed. Homes. Cars. Outlooks/perspectives. And so on. It was changing because I realized I was the hypothesis and all these things were the tests. A hypothesis could never be alone because it is alive. It is the beautiful chemistry of the creation of thought/idea, dancing with creation of becoming real live matter/data, alive and tested. So I ask you again. When have you felt alone and what are you doing about it ?